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dont say that you are sorry for breaking every inch of my heart
i should have known from the start
now its time to get lost

acosted's baby shower :)

in mexico i took a walk to inhale the tranquil cool lover's air

i am once again starting to miss mexico... hence the picture up there. friday, got too drunk :| was pretty fun except once i ate the cold pasta and bread that tiff and cisco had.. that really killed me and i just wanted to throw that up. i guess i texted andy bout how drunk i was ... yeah i was that drunk , f me :| . was upset once austin was sooo tired he had to sleep HAHAHAHA crazy night i wish i could write more but i hardly remember anything.. according to shannon the pictures are pretty funny , too bad i havent gotten them yet
before the night :)


when i was about to die and not remember anything haha!






:P next morning nancita woke me and kalie up bright and early. kalie nancy grace jp dre fady and G all headed down to the getty :) me and kalie were mastering guns n roses songs ... i can be the next axl rose ;) fun ride there. and just fun quality time with them people :)

before i got greasy

all of us

it was a really pretty room, we had to :)

trying to mimic the painting

fady will be fady

i captured the moment

TOOO pretty :)

..then dre got jealous, ahha jk :)

we were third wheelin together :)

regardless of how dumb dre can be towards me, ill always love that thing :P









haha. saturday night was some sort of disappointment but i still enjoyed it bein with channon kp and headuurrr.



and today i got a reminder of what it feels like to be REALLY mexican. went to pancho villas and enjoyed two hours of mariachi. got home... youtubed my life away with morrissey. he has two new songs ; because of my poor education and children in pieces. GO READ THE LYRICS!
..me and dre are "back together" haha





okay no spring break for me. off to schoool life now :|







p.s.
regarding the dont forget video i sent the whole world & my ex

-: yaaa dont forget. . . . wen i was watching it i had to all loud cause my comp was hooked up to some big speakers and my mom heard it and started crying hahahahahahaha
-: it was wired
-: and then she was like omg wat is that and i was like o something video stephanie sent me and she was like awww stephanie sent u that and all this junk

& from there i have different things to think about when i listen to that song... great.

:8]

just waiting til kalie finishes up to read her part of the chapter. i love how we all scheme the heck out of CIS. lately: started being not so great with people who dont desrve my niceness, dont know how to word it without being so darn obvious. i still get upset over him from time to time, but a recent guy made me realize that otehr thing isnt hte only cool guy that exists. so my old friend and i have been talking a lot recently aaaaaaand i like it :) talking to him has made me realize things about myself that i didnt know before. major plus :D he seems so sincere, filled with good intentions [most of the time] AND YEAH hes in love with art too. so tight :) OKAY DONE ADMIRING THIS GUY HAH. lets see... OH YEAH saw my ex friday <3 ... NOT hahahahaha. i like how he was trying to be stand offish to me. i was just asking for a bike. i guess thats too much, although he claims to always "miss me and wants to chill as friends" how ironic he just text me "ill never forget" HAHHAHHAHAH funny stuff. ANYWAYS so my friends and i are really determined to work out and go back to our "normal bodies". image isnt everything but i just do not feel comfortable the way my body is built ha. so what have we been doing? working out mwf. recently, we added bike rides and walks. HOPEFULLY ALL GOES AS PLANNED. OKAY ILL ADD RANDOM PICTURES LATER CAUSE THAT IS JUST WHAT I DO


-godorant out.
ps you dont want to know what godorant smells like






my hair is growing!


pss
where do his intentions lay or does he even have any?
my mind always wanders back to you. hate it.

i see the world it makes me puke but then i look at you and know that somewhere there's a someone who can soothe me

morrissey, once again has taken my breathe away. he knows about all the good things. he must know about me and carson haha :) my sister keeps talking to me as if we are going to coachella... i really hope to go

perfect song, he covered it by the buzzcocks.

You say you don't love me
Well that's alright with me 'cos I'm in love with you
And I wouldn't want you doing
things you don't want to do
Oh you know I've always wanted
you to be in love with me
And it took so long to realize
the way things have to be
I wanted to live in a dream that couldn't be real
And I'm starting to understand
now the way that you feel
You say you don't
You say you don't

You say you don't love me
Well that's alright with me 'cos I have got the time
To wait in case someday you maybe change your mind
I've decided not to make the same
mistakes this time around
As I'm tired of having heartaches I've
been thinking and I've found
[ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/zvl ]
I don't want to live in a dream I want something real
And I think I understand now the way that you feel
You say you don't
You say you don't
You say you don't

[Solo]

You say you don't
You say you don't

You say you don't love me
Well that's alright with me I'm not in love with you
I just want us to do the things we both want to do
Though I've got this special feelin'
I'd be wrong to call it love
For the word entails a few things
that I would be well rid of
I've no need to live in a dream it's finally real
And I hope you now understand this feeling I feel
You say you don't
You say you don't
You say you don't love me
You say you don't love me
You say you don't love me
Mmm


i am really proud of myself for saying no to a certain someone.
like carson tried saying , you can kiss a fool but dont let a kiss fool you
or something like that?! WELL YEAH
BEST FRIENDS FOREVER



in other news... thanks to austin i have a new favorite shirt ;)