hello i am the ghost of troubled joe.

am i growing up too fast? HAVE i grown up too fast?

you know, i did entirely skip two years of high school. what does it feel like to be a senior? oh, i'll never know.
and what exactly got me thinking all this? the fact that i did not come out in the stinking 2010 picture. and the fact that i never took my senior pictures. it all seems pointless.

i am very silly.

he doesnt look as handsome in this picture, but he sure is eye candy haha!

this would have been a cute picture if the contrast wasnt set to so high!

this guy may not know it, but he is my favorite.

until i experience a set of internal problems like i always do. ha

lesson learned

don't EVER lose faith in human beings because that 1/1000 person will prove you wrong.

barbarism begins at home

why am i always hurting?
especially when i'm in my house

always feeling so alone.
man oh man.

here it goes

another week, another thought, another new post in which i pour my heart out [or whatever is left of it]
SO, i will lay it all out; it's clearly hard for me to be interested in a guy. yeah ill have a silly crush that will last a week or less. any negative trait i spot in a guy will haunt me forever. thus leading me not experiencing anyone who brings me those stupid butterflies ever since andy. now that was long ago! the time in between ive spent experiencing a variety of guys. of course its all been a fiasco. then, a guy who our friendship developed in our current art class comes. yes, hes brought out feelings in me that i forgot i could even feel. im all gushy right now, i know, im lame. but im happy that i've finally admitted to myself that im feeling a connection.

its just been so long; therefore, you cannot blame me for being excited :P

There, I've said it loud and clear
So that you will hear
There's no one in view
Just you

bittersweet.

who knew my whole life would be butchered. everything seems to be falling apart.
everything except school&literally 3 friends
at least i found a valuable treasure in this trash can.

whether there are romantic intentions or not, this is a fresh breathe of air. he could not have came in a better time of my life.


halloween was rather a fiasco this year. compared to last year's endless dancing and sharing great memories with nancy jp kevin andy ashley and others.

slash&freddiemercury

i really need to complete my 60 transferable units and get my ass outta moval.