live and let die

im finding myself going back to my old ways, it's probably not very noticeable but in my mind it's the most obvious thing ever. carson is my diary that holds a secret oh so fine...
not to mention irwin also knows.
i was hoping i would get a sense of what im doing by explaining it to them.
but nah, im still LOST
lost by morrissey... alright!

ah the joys of being sober

mute witness

these are marbles, of course my art teacher put me on blast for not being able to circle a perfect circle.

beach yesterday was fun. but it has nothing for me

dre decided to buy me sunglasses

i look worn out from doing lillys makeup and hair. [with the help of shannon for makin her hair stay up]

senior banquet for middle college. i was asked to paint something for them

so i decided to paint a roarin twenties inspired image. i bought a feather to tape on her hair. but obviously its not proportioned right. hopefully one day ill PAINT a bigger feather.

tiffany and dom confirmed

and we support :D

ray is a freshman foul!

what do i want to write about? i dont know. maybe if i was a good writer i'd know what to write about >:o
...im feeling guns n roses more than usual lately :)

there is something i wanted to tell you, it's so funny you'll kill yourself laughing. but then i , i look around and i remember that i am alone.

less than a month until spring session ends. like always, i get tired and bored from my classes. pretty excited to do step aerobics during summer. i'm still not in shape as i wish to be. life has been a roller coaster. i dont know what i'm thinking anymore. but i guess everyone goes through this phase? i make a specific person feel bad about himself, and it's only because of the pain he put me through. EMOOO :| haha. just waiting intil one day goodbye will be farewell :) drinking is just blah. im way too ... not myself when i drink. something i debate EVERY SINGLE DAY, except of course when the weekend comes. my brother has been driving me crazy. not only do i have responsibilities of my own for school, but i feel like his responsibilities are thrown onto me. i just can't leave him hanging so im just stuck in a hole. UUGHHHH. joseph, it's been almost a year since its been over. yet he continues to dream about me and send me all these lyrics. i dont know how that makes me feel. well i do but i dont feel like sorting my feelings out. on a brighter note, ratas are cool ;)

for prom we stayed at the marriot in desert springs. it was beautiful :D
after prom the celebration lasted about an hour or two until i passed out
the next day i felt like crap, but i still managed to lay around the pool for a little :)
friday was a fun and random night :) i put myself together with the help of billy and joe
billy making sure i didnt run off with his glasses? hahaha IDK
trying to mimic a certain someone. LIKE ME WITH ALL MY HAIR UP? :|
kalie recieved some puppets for her happy meal, i spent all weekend with them and they are even still sitting next to my side right now :D
i wasnt drunk, i waas SOOOOOOO EXHAUSTED :|
puppets <3