feeling neutral

or not.
dearest ______
a variety of morrissey lyrics are being put to good use.

This might make you throw up in your bed
I'M OK BY MYSELF!
And I don't need you
And I never have,
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Things I've heard and I've seen
And I've felt and I've been
Tell me I'll never be anybody's lover now
It begins in the heart
And it hurts when it's true
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Pashernate love
Could make your old Daddy feel
Like he may have a reason to live

Oh, as for me
It still doesn't understand me
And it wouldn't lay one single finger on me

I'm always there
It's always elsewhere
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Spring-heeled Jim lives to love
Now kissing with his mouth full
And his eyes on some other fool
So many women
His head should be spinning
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Our frank and open
Deep conversations
They get me nowhere
They bring me down, so
Give it a rest, won't you ?
Give me a cigarette
God give me patience
Just no more conversation
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I tried to surprise you I lay down beside you And ... nothing much happened And you didn't phone me You didn't even phone me Because it's not your style To dial
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I do believe that
The more you give your love
And I do believe that
The more you give your trust
The more you're bound to lose
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Why do you come here When you know it makes things hard for me ?
When you know, oh
Why do you come ?
Why do you telephone ? (Hmm...)
And why send me silly notes ?

done thinking too deeply for today, other than that summer has been great :) i just dont want to think about the fact that im going to be a senior. meaning i will graduate high school in june, i seem to young for all that junk. it makes me nervous to be thinking about what universities i want to apply in and whether i want to apply as a freshman or transfer. i dont want to take the SATs, which makes transferring seem so much more better. EITHER WAY im still ahead of the game and im going to have to figure out what i want to be sooner than everyone else due to the fact that ill be a junior in college when people in my age group will still be freshmen. UUUUUUUUGH TOO MUCH THINKING AGAIN. this is the last blog i will ever write, oh i've changed my mind again. goodnight and thank you :)






i know i'm kinda late and stuff, but the hotel where we stayed for prom was really nice :D
carson was my fake ass date

meet austin, im not sure if he is aware of it or not but he sure knows how to confuse a girl :B
sylvester, man, i like the boy a lot. tender hearted indeed :D wish things between him and a friend couldve worked out, BUTTTT shit happens
ha we all know how much of a fail ray was/is.
nanciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiita y jota p <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://i9.photobucket.com/albums/a67/TheTifinator/June%206%202009%20Andy%20and%20etc/IMG01854-20090606-2319.jpg">'nough said!!!!!

summer 09 ............................................