lack of a father

lack of happiness. if there is one thing that is constantly renewed in my mind its the fact that i never and will never have an appropriately filled in father role in my life.. if that makes sense. half of you don't realize what hard working, loving,&great dads you have. as for me, i've been sitting around for at least the past 10 years wondering when i will get the chance to experience the warmth that a father can provide. it will probably never happen.

but it's okay.

on the other hand, i have a great mom and sisters, and a handful of friends im thankful for :)